this whole week wasnt very nice to go with. quarrels, tears.. everything.
today is no exception as well. everything that happened totally spoiled my mood. nothing that takes place is a happy thing for me. i really really feel very terrible, but i guess nobody will ever understands. nobody will rrly know the true feeling. so dont bother to ask me whats up.. so what if anybody knows, who rrly can take all these that im going through away from me.
just do anything you want. okay? since you think this is the only way. i wont be angry anymore. alrights? your own choice, im not you, i dont own you. i dont control you. so just do as you please. at least, im not going to say i dont care anymore. bcos it doesnt seems to affect you. dont think im trying to kid with you when i say something, i rrly mean it when i say i ll angry, i mean it when i say im gonna get real unahppy. dont ever ever underestimate me, dont ever think i ll get soft hearted.
and den, we quarrelled again, yes again. and i feel really dumb. i think all was just an excuse of msging you, just an excuse of seeing your name in my inbox. the only way i get all these, is to quarrel with you, argue with you. yes it makes me unhappy.. but what can i do? maybe all these are just processes i have to go through, to really forget about you. i dont hate you, i dont loathe the sight of seeing you. i really dont..
i ve done everything i could, to break your heart, to make you tear, to make you unhappy, to make u change ur views on me, to make every1 arnd you change their views on me hoping that they ll persuade you to let go of a bitch like me. and im really hoping you'd let me go. even though i you so. dont ask me what i am hesitating with, dont ask me why am i doing all these. i ll never get that faith and trust i used to have for you. i ll nvr ever be able to walk out of the shadow u ve given me. so for now, we ll lead our lives just like that. even if im not happy, i ll be happy.
終於捨得去成全去放手
過我自己的生活 偶爾想你的時候
就讓回憶來陪我
終於捨得去成全去放手
不追問你的感受 尊重彼此的選擇
當你決定了向左 我往前走
